i. it’s good to hear your voice / cause i haven’t heard much of anything these days, beyond the bomb-blast shock of the drums on the floor and / it’s good to see your face / cause for a while, you’ve been gone / and maybe, so have i / jacket over flannel over turtleneck over little white lies / i used to tell for attention / seven years old, eyes bloodshot with desperation / it seems like a lifetime ago / like i blinked, and now i am here / sixteen years old / i’ve got my headphones in / i’ve gotta be doing something / everything / drowning out the ghosts at the door / i’ve gotta burn it to ash / paint myself an empire / and rip it to shreds / it’s not good enough, no / it never is / even when you smear blood on the wall and you don’t go outside / there’s no beauty in self-destruction / even when it’s easy on the eyes 

ii. it’s good to hear your voice / i’ve been trying / really / trying to do you right / trying to be the person you think i am / she’s really something, isn’t she? / god, i am loved / and it kills me / i am loved, and it sinks like a death wish into my bones / i am loved in every city light, every absent curve of flesh and bone / this mixed-up bag of shit / but if there’s a single lump of gold in-between the shards of glass, i’ll take it / and could you just hold me, like i am ten years old / and press kisses to my forehead / and sing me to sleep like a little kid / and i will hate it / and i will close my eyes and lean in / to your shoulder and we’re watching tv / / i am loved / in soft touches and silly jokes, in every bandage on the kitchen counter / every word i never wrote

inertia (spoken word)

Hey guys! So, I haven’t done any spoken word stuff for a little while, because I’ve been trying to work on this piece, and procrastinating on this piece, and it was just a whole mess. Anyway, it’s here now, and I really like how it turned out! I don’t know if it’s a bit too weird and experimental, I was just trying out some new things, who knows if they worked. Anyway, if you want you can check out the original post here.

“Skytrain Acceleration FS.wav” is by Sailor55. It was found here and used according to this license. And the rest is under public domain!

potpourri (spoken word)

Hey guys! So, I haven’t done a spoken word track in a bit. This isn’t perfect, and I’m not totally happy with it, but I hope you enjoy. Everything used in here is in the public domain. You can check out the written version here.

a letter to my younger self (spoken word!!)

So, I’ve been really trying to get back into making spoken word stuff again, and it’s been going well so far! This is one of my favourite poems I wrote of late, so over the weekend, I decided to record and edit it into this piece, and I’m super proud of how it turned out! I got really funky with the reverbs, and I can’t tell if it’s too much or not, but I had fun with it anyway. You can check out the original post here.

Oh! So, as I write this it’s actually really late at night on the 30th, but as you’ll be reading this, it’ll be the first day of 2021. Last year, I think I wrote a whole special New Year’s post at 1am, after consuming one too many sugary beverage, which undoubtedly aged like fine wine. This year, I don’t want to humiliate myself, should we have a second pandemic or something, so I’m gonna refrain from that. But anyway, hopefully 2021 will surprise us, and good luck, future-readers, with your first day of the new year!

All sound effects are under the public domain. Song is “Starling” by Podington Bear. It is found here, and used according to this license.

tomorrow (spoken word!)

Hey guys! So, this has been a long time coming, because I am the queen of procrastination. But finally, at long last, I present to you the “tomorrow” spoken word track! I’m really proud of this one, and I’m gradually accumulating footage for a video, which I’m hoping to put out soon, but no promises. (See the thing about procrastination.)

Honestly, working on this poem has been kind of a lifeline for me. It’s not been great in my brain of late–which isn’t abnormal, I always tend to get really bummed out around Christmas and New Year’s, and obviously everything going on in the world right now isn’t helping. So I hope this piece can offer you the same relief it gave me.

By the way, as I write this it’s the 21st, but when you read this it’ll be Christmas day. So if you celebrate it, Merry Christmas, and if you don’t, I hope you have a wonderful day. ❤

Lots and lots of love,


If you want to read the written version, you can find that here.

The backing song is “Aria” and is from It is under public domain, as are all sound effects used in this track, which were found on 🙂