June: The Month in Photography

June 6th

Okay, so I don’t know if I mentioned this, but I’m taking a photography class at my school, and while I was researching for a report for it, I learned about double exposures–where you overlay two pictures over top of each other for this kind of trippy effect where you can really see the subject’s motion. Originally, it was done with film, where you wind back to the place the photo you want to overlay was, and then put something else on top of it, but I do not have a film camera (although I desperately want one), so I had to settle for overlaying this photo over one taken a few seconds after on Canva, to hopefully show motion?

Also, full credits to my friend for taking this while we were at the beach–thank you very much for being my cameraman, this is such a cool photo and I had to include it somewhere.

June 11th

I took a bunch of photos in a meadow of daisies I found the other day, for my photography class, and I really liked how this one turned out! I might post some of the other ones in a separate post, because they ended up being super pretty!

It was so quiet, and peaceful in this meadow, and I actually started to feel comfortable in front of the camera, which is something I’ve never experienced before, and I just had a lot of fun, so I might try and do this again, especially if I can tie it into an assignment.

June 17th

It’s not often I see something purple I can capture in a photo, so when I saw these little flowers, I had to jump on the opportunity. I really love how the light catches this picture, I think it looks so cool.

As I write this, I’m about a day away from finishing tenth grade, and more than anything, I am just so relieved to be able to have more time for work, at long last–both, like, creative work, and also actually-making-money work. I’ll probably take on a few more hours in the summer, and finally be able to work in the mornings, rather than roasting in the afternoon sun, since I’m always booked with school in the mornings. I know that sounds like a boring thing to be excited for, but trust me, when you’ve spent months on end working in the sweltering heat, this is huge.

I’ve been vaguely considering the idea of doing event photography as a job when I’m older–I don’t know, I could see being good at it, and there’s a slightly more guaranteed income there than for something like writing. We’ll see.

July 5th

It’s been disgustingly hot of late–it’s been disgustingly hot all over the place, really, which is… well, climate change for you. The heatwave came right when I was getting all excited for summer, too–before I was reminded that where I live, summer usually requires you to become an indoor hermit who braves the great outdoors only for an evening walk, because it is so gross and hot during normal waking hours. To be fair, there are usually some good months in there–we get to go swimming a lot, which is always nice, and I will admit that being done with school is a massive relief now I’ve gotten used to the new schedule.

There is a reason this post is very late (for those of you who, like, regularly follow this blog–are you out there? I don’t know, I hope you are). Also, a reason there was a huge gap in entries–which I could have fabricated over, but decided not too for the sake of honesty, and also because I didn’t take many pictures during that time period.

Honestly, I’m having a bit of creative block–simultaneously doing very good and very horribly. I’m learning to draw (because I’m not going to die with the storyboards for imaginary animatics in my brain, their full glory lost to humanity forever, goddamnit!) and I’m working on a bunch of song covers that I may or may not post online, depending on how cruel I’m feeling to myself in ten years. I’m sleeping weird hours and drinking lots of water and considering getting rid of this blog every other day. I guess I’m just feeling a little confused, and vulnerable. I’m not as willing to share everything with the world as I used to be.

And that makes me sad–but I think it’s just growing up. It’s healthy to be a little confused. I’ll figure it out eventually.

Love,

Lorna

pov: you are catching up with me on a sunday afternoon

Hey there! I’ve been really reconsidering this blog of late, and figuring out what the hell I want to do with it, because I’m out of school so it’s time for my annual creativity-related-life crisis. Anyway, I thought this might be a fun thing to do, since summer just started and all, and I feel like I do so many poetry posts, I don’t really get to just… talk, like a casual normal person, into the void. (Rather than waxing poetic into the void, which is very different actually.)

So, how have you been doing, dear reader? Is it unbearably hot where you are, or is the weather really nice, so you can actually get out sometimes? (See what I’m doing here? Classic small talk. I know how to interact with people. Uh-huh, definitely.)

If you’re in school, are you excited to be done, or dreading the next few months of having nothing to distract you from your mind, like myself? Have you been doing any fun summer activities, such as taking on more hours at work, refusing to leave the house during normal waking hours because it’s so ridiculously hot, or hanging out with your friends? I am genuinely curious, please let me know, hearing from people makes my day.

I’ve been all over the place of late–I’ve been working a bit more, because it’s summer, and if I don’t constantly occupy myself I will spiral into an anxious breakdown. Also, everyone wants you to garden for them right now. I’ve been trying to learn to draw (emphasis on trying, who knows how long it’s going to last) and doing little covers on guitar and ukulele, because I’m finally good enough I can tell myself I’m sort of doing the songs justice, and not totally be lying. I have been spending too much time on my phone. I have been not sleeping at the right hours, or enough, because the stupid sun is deciding to rise early, and I hate closing the curtains and waking up in a dark, depressing room tinted green, even though it’s a very small task. I’m going to visit a friend, soon, and I’m a little nervous but also just really excited to see her. To have some kind of normalcy, I guess? It feels weird to see things opening back up, and honestly, it makes me really nervous. I don’t know if that’s logical or not, but it does.

And it kinda feels like the world is ending, but then… it always does, right?

I’ve been swimming a ton. I used to be a big swimming kid, I thought I was gonna do it competitively, but it never happened–which is good, it was not a healthy fixation. Anyway, I still love swimming with my whole heart, just as a hobby, I always feel so peaceful–like, the best kind of alone.

I’m hoping to release the first episode of my podcast (which is called We Are Here, it’s very cool I promise, and you can follow us on Twitter here) either this month or early August, which is exciting. And scary, and weird, that this thing I’ve been sitting on for over a year is going to be out in the world soon. I sort of want to stop time, right here–not because right here is particularly remarkable or great, I’m just very scared of the unknown.

I’m excited for my courses next year, that’s something I really genuinely look forward to. I’ve got most of the mandatory ones out of the way, which means I get to take 20th Century World History, and Sign Language, and Astronomy, and Photography, and Social Justice, and Marketing, and at least right now, I’m very optimistic. Even though I still have no idea what I want to do post-graduation. Of course, the idea of learning is always ten times more fun than the actual agony of staring at a computer screen for hours on end and reminding yourself why you thought taking this course was a good idea, but still.

It’s a small thing, but a few days ago, I went out for lunch with a friend, and we wandered around these little vintage stores afterwards, and I got this really cute dress, and a super comfy romper that I’m wearing right now, and every time I look in the mirror I do a little happy dance. And, like, don’t feel terrible in my body, which is really nice. And every few days, I’ve been picking a fresh batch of sweet peas from the garden, to put on my desk. I don’t know, sometimes it makes the world of difference to just… get yourself pretty things, if you can. I think. In moderation. I mean, I’ve never done it before, but you know, this trial run is going pretty good so far.

And that’s… all I can really think of, off the top of my head. I hope this was kind of nice to read–like a Day in the Life post, but without the commitment of remembering what I did this morning, and ensuring my day was, in fact, interesting. Anyway, I will hopefully see you soon.

Lots of love,

Lorna

My favourite things (may 19th-june 4th)

Hi there! So, it’s been a hot minute since I made one of these posts, huh? Well, here we are, back again–and I thought I’d try my best to hype up some of my favourite things from the past little while. Please check all them out, they are absolutely wonderful!

Khora

Okay, technically the title of this show has a big ol’ accented o in the title, but I’m on my computer and I don’t want to look up the alt code, so please forgive me if you made the show and are reading this.

Khora is a sci-fi podcast based off the Greek myth of the Argonauts, following Princess Medea after she kills her husband Jason. (Yes, I had to look up the myth on Wikipedia to fully appreciate this show. Yes, it was 100% worth it.) I was a huge Greek mythology kid, thanks to the wonders of Rick Riordan books–so listening to this show takes me back to the days when my entire life revolved around whether or not Jason and Piper were going to kiss, it feels very nostalgic.

I love how they interpret the stories, especially Medusa–making her a biproduct of the evil Olympus Corp’s experimentation, able to paralyze people against her will when she feels nervous. (Is this because I project onto her? Absolutely.) Anyway, I would 100% recommend it.

Second Star to the Left

Another super loose retelling–this one is based off Peter Pan, set in a world where humanity has spread amongst the stars, and the colonizing of planets is routine. Scouts like Gwendolyn Hart are sent to scout out empty planets… knowing they will never leave the planet they land on, for the rest of their lives, and won’t even see another human being for five years, when their first settlers arrive.

But Gwen isn’t completely alone–she has her Scoutminder, Bell Summers, to keep her company, and of course her trusty robot companion, Boots. (Writing these posts has made me really good at using the exact same tone a movie trailer would. What has my life come to.)

Because it’s an audio drama, obviously it has buckets of LGBT+ rep, and an evil corporation, what more could you want. I love the sound design on this show, it’s so well done, plus the voice acting is incredible. Bell’s backstory episode has to be my favourite–I was absolutely losing my mind as things unrolled. I can’t wait to see where this show goes, it’s so cool! (And absolutely going to emotionally destroy me, but oh well.)

In Transit

Another space podcast, hooray! In Transit follows the spaceship Eurus, where everything really seems like it’s going fine, until a series of murders takes place–and Alecto McAlpine (a Sentinel, or an elite soldier chosen to guard the ship) is brought out of cryo, in the hopes she’ll be able to get to the bottom of whatever’s going on. But she’s about to uncover a conspiracy far greater than anyone ever could have imagined… dun dun dun…

Anyway, that’s all I can say without spoiling you, but holy shit, this is such a good show! I always say this, but I love the way it’s put together, I love the music, I love the writing–it really knows how to do a good mystery–and most of all, the found family, because I’m absolute trash for that trope. Cairo’s story especially had me more than a little emotional, and anyway now I declare him my comfort character, you can pry him out of my cold, dead hands. This is such a wonderful show, I love it so much, please check it out!

The Night Post

Next, I listened to The Night Post, which has been in my mental to-be-listened-to list for a while, since it sounded super cool. And it absolutely is! It’s set in the super-spooky Gilt City, where the supernatural is kind of just the norm. The three main characters–Val, Clementine, and Milo, all have been selected to work as pigeons for the Night Post, delivering mail by dark. Their job is feared by the wider public, which seems them harbingers of the supernatural. Which, to be fair, they might be. But they’re also… just kind of normal people, amid their high-fatality jobs? It’s a horror podcast, but it’s got lots of heart as well, and the sweetest found family. My favourite character has to be either Milo or Clem–because Milo’s voice sounds like a hug, and I see myself a little in Clem for some reason. The last episode absolutely destroyed me–I have no idea what’s going to happen in season two, and I can’t wait to listen to it, oh my gosh.

Sugar Rush

Ok, this is kind of a fish out of water amid all these super cool indie podcasts, which have touched my soul and/or emotionally destroyed me, but I have this weird obsession with baking shows and I’m going to make it everyone else’s problem. They’re just so nice to watch when I’m sad, and give me this feeling of, like, psuedo-accomplishment, I guess? Anyway, I’ve been kind of obsessed with this one of late.

The idea is, there are four teams of professional bakers, competing against each other and the clock in three rounds where they make cupcakes, confections, and finally a cake. It makes baking feel high-stakes, which I guess I have to give them some credit for. I have a ridiculous amount of fun deciding which team of lovely people to be overly critical of, and which team to root for to the grave, and pretending to know more about baking than I actually do. It’s on Netflix if you want to watch it. 🙂

Whoo! That was a pretty long post, but I’ve just been consuming a ton of media of late, what can I say? Anyhow, I hope you enjoyed. See you soon!

Lots of love,

Lorna

May: The Month in Photography

May 8th


So, it’s been a really exhausting day, not gonna lie. I went to work after a not-great night of sleep, and got back at twelve. Sometimes, after I’m done working, I can just jump right onto my next task with maybe five minutes to get changed… and sometimes I’m so wiped out I can’t form coherent thoughts for three hours. Today has been the latter. It feels like all I can do is worry about things I can’t control.

Like, I have this existential crisis every few months or so about if I should go to university or not–if I have a choice, if my feelings are particularly relevant to this decision. I spin around and around on my little mental toilet bowl, knowing perfectly well this isn’t going to go anywhere.

I’ve just been so hard on myself of late. I’m gonna try and work on that, and hopefully go to bed early tonight.

May 16th


So, I did not in fact, go to bed early. And now it’s the week after, and I feel like I could just fall asleep at my desk right now, except the moment I lie down in bed, all that exhaustion disappears, and I have to lie awake for a while.

I’ve got a big day tomorrow–school, and then a table read for the audio drama I’m working on. But weirdly, I don’t feel too nervous? That might just be the sleep deprivation.

It’s really cheesy, but I’ve been thinking a lot about something a teacher told me a while ago–you have to enjoy the process, because otherwise, what’s the point? I’ve always been a really goal-oriented kind of person, and I really don’t mean that in the positive way. My whole life is structured in my head into milestones and check-boxe. I’ve been trying to go slower, of late. Figure out what the hell that even means.

May 19th


I’m so bad at appreciating what I’ve got.

When things are quiet, and I’ve got nothing better to do, I fantasize about being this super busy famous writer–having deadlines, a management team, an editor, people whose whole job is to determine my success. A platform–like, a real one, and maybe someone would recognize me at a coffeeshop once, I don’t know. Healing people in some small way with a poem, or a story, and convincing people like me it will get better.

But when things actually happen in my life, I immediately switch to fantasizing about just having a normal life. Coming home from work and watching TV and knowing that was it–I was done, no stories to write or blog posts to edit or a thousand balls to carefully juggle.

The grass is always greener on the other side. I feel like that would be a good poem.

May 22nd


So, exciting news: I booked my vaccine appointment! I’m gonna get the first shot on May 30th, and I’m just so relieved to finally feel a bit safer.

I’m historically not the best with vaccines. I just don’t like strangers touching me, and especially when they’re not only touching me but stabbing me with a needle, it just usually sends me into at least a minor panic attack.

Aaanyway, I will be okay, it’s just not the most pleasant experience.

May 25th


So, exciting news, I guess: I auditioned for a podcast, and I’m gonna audition for two more tomorrow. I play one of the characters in We Are Here, which I just decided to take on for the hell of it, but turns out, I really like it? Like, it seriously makes me so happy? And even if nothing comes of it, I’m really glad I’ve figured that out about myself and wanted to share that with the universe today. So, yeah, that’s the life update I guess.

June 1st


Okay, technically I’m writing this in June now–because it’s been a not-great two days, and side effects are a bitch, but: I got vaccinated! On the 30th! And… it wasn’t an entirely awful experience? Which is weird, because I don’t think I’ve ever gotten a shot without panicking. But the lady at the vaccine clinic was so nice, and she made me feel really at ease, and in conclusion I owe her my firstborn child.

I felt really weird afterward–like the tail end of a cold, with fun add-ins of dizziness, what felt like a fever, being really sore everywhere and not being able to move your arm. I’m fine now, though.

It feels like I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s still a little far off, but I also can see that we are getting there. Which is a feeling I’ve pretty much spent the last year waiting for.

(Editing Lorna sliding in here to say that obviously, getting vaccinated is a huge privilege, and unfortunately not something everyone has access to! I’m insanely lucky to be able to get the shot at all. Okay, now, back to our regularly scheduled programming.)

I just can’t wait for the world to get back to normal. I’ll probably still be kinda miserable, but maybe a little bit less than usual. I don’t know.

Lots of love,

Lorna

my favourite things (May 5th-15th)

The Beacon (Season Two)

Okay, so I know I’ve already written about this podcast, but Holy. Shit. I just need to talk about this show, okay?! It’s so good! For those of you who don’t know, The Beacon is a fiction podcast about a reluctant group of college-aged superheroes, trying to keep their campus safe from the increasingly strange happenings all around it.

This will have some spoilers below, so if, unlike me, you have enough self-control to listen to the whole podcast to find out what actually happens, just close your eyes and scroll past this. Okay, let’s get into it!

This season was even better than the first, I loved the little mini-episodes in between seasons to keep you updated on what was going on with the characters–it was so much fun. Also, we got to find out some of the characters’ real names! I’ve been trying to guess what they are for ages, so you have no idea the amount of serotonin I got from finding out that Capy’s name is Thea. (I had her pegged as maybe a Katy or a Kate, something along those lines–but Thea fits her perfectly.) Also, the plot is really getting intense, I have no idea what’s going to happen in season three, but I’m very excited to find out.

The whole plot with the wolf cult was super chilling–cults in general are always really interesting to write or read about, and I love how this one was handled.

Also, Lassie/Thalusol (is that how it’s spelled? I have no idea, if you wrote the show and are reading this, please forgive me) was such a fun character. At first, he was just very welcome comic relief, but his arc quickly turned much more deep and as the season went on, he became one of my favourite characters–I still think he’s an asshole, but he’s an interesting asshole, so I can tolerate him.

Anyway, in conclusion this show absolutely destroyed me, and I would highly recommend it.

Wooden Overcoats

Wooden Overcoats follows siblings Rudyard and Antigone Funn, who run a funeral home–which used to be the only one on the tiny island of Piffling Vale, until the effortlessly charming Eric Chapman comes along, and steals almost all of their business, because they’re actually kind of terrible at their jobs.

This has everything I want in a show. It’s so cozy and soothing, and just has a way of bringing a smile to my face In case you couldn’t tell, my sense of humour tends to lean a little dark, so this show’s kind of comedy was right up my alley.

It feels a bit like A Series of Unfortunate Events–a depressing show that still manages to cheer you up despite the vague, sinking knowledge that no matter how set the characters seem to be for a happy ending, something nine times out of ten will go wrong, but you can never predict how exactly–which makes for a weirdly addictive viewing experience. It also just has such a neat, very specific, whimsical small-town aesthetic. I think I could listen to this show a thousand times over and never get bored. I love the theme song and the sound design, and everything about it is just wonderful, and perfectly polished, you can feel the amount of love put into every single episode.

I don’t know if there’s going to be a season four or not, but I really hope there is, because I love these characters so much. Also, the last episode of season three almost made me cry, so be warned.

Heart of Ether

I’ve been looking for a horror podcast to fill the Magnus Archives-shaped void in my heart, and Heart of Ether is the perfect fit. It follows Irene Gray, a newcomer to the town of Daughtler, Washington–told in her voice recordings, addressed to her high school girlfriend, who went missing without explanation four years ago. But something’s not quite right about this town, and monsters lurk below the surface… and that is all I can say without getting into spoilers.

The sound design is so chilling, the voice acting is phenomenal, and I’m excited to see where this story is going, because I can sense something big is going to happen in season two, which will start releasing August 13th, so stay tuned because I will definitely need to gush about it more later on.

The Mitchells vs. The Machines

I know I’m probably not the only person who’s talking about this movie–it’s been trending on Netflix for a while. But I watched it, and it sort of made me have a mental breakdown, because I guess I’m just allergic to healthy relationships in media now? Like, I will watch stories about trauma and death and brutal violence and be totally numb to it, but give me a happy ending and I’m questioning all my life decisions and crying on the floor. But. It is a really refreshing, very honest take on the “fun cartoon family adventure” movie genre, that I feel like can be enjoyed by adults and kids.

It follows The Mitchells, a family who were just trying to drive their eldest daughter Katie to college, and definitely never intended to be the last free people during the machinepocalypse. They’re unlikely heroes, about as prepared to save the world as any of us would be, and that’s exactly why this movie is so good. All the characters feel so real, and flawed, and fundamentally human.

I’m a huge sucker for family dynamics–romantic relationships and friendships are great, but there’s nothing more fun to write or watch/read about than a family. You get to see how they all influence and effect each other, work together as a team, how they relate to each other, their individual dynamics, the highs and lows of each of those relationships, and especially if they’ve known each other for a really long time, there’s just so much potential in there. I love thinking about how parents effect children, for better or for worse. So, this movie just ticked all the boxes for me, and if you’re prepared to cry a bit, I would definitely reccomend it.

Anyway, that’s all I’ve got for you this week! I hope you check all these wonderful things out, because they’re super cool and they made me happy. Feel free to share any things that you’ve been enjoying of late in the comments, I love hearing from readers. ❤

Lots of love,

Lorna