ode to armageddon

so i’m sitting in the corner, scrolling through my phone / and listening to this middle aged man at the hardware store / argue with his wife in whispered tones / about screwdrivers and carpet / and he’s calling her a bitch / but we all know they’ll stay together / steep in the silt of their misery / i don’t think it’s a good sign that i relate to them already / a little bit / ’cause their world is ending / a tylenol fever burrowing through tough skin / and i doubt they’ll notice when the lights cut out / but i will / as i sink into my pillow like surrender / on the nights when i can’t sleep / because maybe they were once in love / maybe they had hopes and dreams / but now they’re sunburnt and old / with a bitter tinge on their lips / so my dear armageddon / take me slowly / kiss my eyelids closed / and i will try not to scream out / as smoke fills my bedroom / and the skyscrapers crumble down / because i don’t think the world needs another tragedy a / life cut short or / product of circumstance / and god, i hope they’re happy / some day far, far away / i hope they split up / and find new love / and he starts a coffeeshop / she moves to the city / i hope all their dreams come true / i hope it’s not too late to change / and grow / and get our shit together / i hope, i hope, i hope


I’ve been thinking about the end of the world a lot of late. I think a lot of people are–maybe it’s yellow car syndrome, where you just see what you’re looking for, but lately it seems like so many people have been putting out songs about the end of the world, or making books and TV shows about the apocalypse. And again, this is almost certainly my spin on things, because perception is really subjective, but they don’t really feel like tragedies anymore. Like the end of the world is something so many of us are starting to accept as a grim possibility, and something we’ll just have to live with. This world with record-breaking heatwaves and oceans on fire and a million other tragedies and injustices. Like most of us are just at a loss for what to do, other than posting about it online and signing petitions. It’s comforting, to romanticize it–play it out in your mind. Honestly, sometimes it’s the only thing that gets me through the day, even if it’s mostly a load of rubbish. (Yes I am most definitely projecting here, what of it.)

I just think it’s interesting, and I tried to capture that in this poem.

Lots of love,

Lorna

about the author

i’m finding_stars, currently running this blog anonymously for the sake of me still being able to be honest in my writing without feeling like the people i know in real life are capable of stopping me from telling the truth about my feelings. i’m a teenager who likes writing, exploring, climbing trees, and not worrying for as long as i can. i’m not going to lie: i have demons, just like you do. i have struggles. i don’t have a long, fancy list of credentials. but i feel like there needs to be more open, passionate, and honest voices out there, and i need to share my feelings with the world without going through a literary magazine or writing a chapbook, honestly in part for the sake of my own ability to function. so i started a blog. don’t expect these poems will always be the same; don’t expect my style not to change. don’t expect that i can always do things perfectly. i am a human being using a computer screen to communicate with you. this blog will continue to grow throughout the years, and i hope to watch it grow with you.

 

 

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i don’t know who you are. i don’t know if you’re the kind of person who i would feel safe having an honest conversation with. i don’t know if you’re the kind of person who i’d like or understand or trust. i don’t know what your story is, and maybe i never will. i don’t know what you think or what you want in life. but i hope my poetry makes you feel less alone in this world.