sometimes i wish that people were like equations
rules to follow, a kind of twisted logic
wish they would hold still for the portrait
while i memorize the planes of their faces
while i read up on philosophy and try my best to make it
but we all die in the end
we all crap out like cheap computers
personify our feelings
stare dead-eyed into the compact mirror
sometimes i wish you could be clearer
just tell me what i need to do
just tell me where i’m going wrong
just tell me how i to fix you and i’ll have it done
in a heartbeat
so stop and break it down
tell me when it was you ran straight off the road
tell me when the words lost meaning
tell me when did you lose hope
and let me splint your fractured knee
let me make it better
for one fucking second, please
sometimes i wish that i wasn’t like this
half watercolour-dripping, half machine
sometimes i wish my eyes saw clearly
and i love you didn’t tumble out of my mouth like a mistake
i wish it didn’t feel like giving something away
i wish the rain would roll off my back
i wish i took my showers cold
i wish my throat didn’t itch
but here i am, getting old